I have felt especially weary as of late. Chalk it up to a mixture of winter weather, somewhat of a job transition, processing emotions, a tooth ache, and other things. I have felt weary. Tired. The days of waking up feeling "Eh I'm not sure I want to do today" have been more frequent. I didn't really realize I felt this way until late last week. I had felt exhausted. Tired. But on Thursday night I finally articulated: I'm weary.
That next day, I was reminded of one of the servant songs of Isaiah, when it says, of Jesus,
"The Sovereign LORD has given me an instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary." Isaiah 50:4
Jesus knows the words that sustain the weary. But He Himself is also the Word who sustains the weary. So I talked to God on Saturday morning, and I asked to know Jesus better. To know Him, and to know His words. To remember, like it says in Hebrews 12, His suffering and His endurance, so that I might not grow weary and lose heart. For if Jesus knows the word that sustains the weary, then I want to open my ears to Him to hear him, that I might be refreshed.
When I'm tired, sleep refreshes me and restores strength to my body. But when I'm weary, the only thing that brings energy back to my tired frame is being with Jesus, and listening to Him speak. It is only when I go to Jesus, the very Word who sustains, that I am renewed and refreshed, and the weariness is lifted.
"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened, and I will cause you to rest. [I will ease and relieve and refresh your souls.] Take My yoke upon you and learn of Me, for I am gentle (meek) and humble (lowly) in heart, and you will find rest (relief and ease and refreshment and recreation and blessed quiet) for your souls." - Jesus (Matthew 11:28-29)