i want to blog, i really do. but i have a horrible habit of not writing down ideas right away-- and then i forget them later on. so for now, i leave you with a passage from Eugene Peterson in his book A Long Obedience in the Same Direction
"Everyday I put faith on the line. I have never seen God. In a world where nearly everything can be weighed, explained, quantified, subjected to psychological analysis and scientific control, I persist in making the center of my life a God whom no eye hath seen, nor ear heard, whose will no one can probe.
"Everyday I put hope on the line. I don't know one things about the future. I don't know what the next hour will hold. There may be sickness, accident, personal or world catastrophe. Before this day is over I may have to deal with death, pain, loss, rejection. I don't know what the future holds for me, for those I love, for my nation, for this world. Still, despite my ignorance and surrounded by tinny optimists and cowardly pessimists, I say that God will accomplish his will, and I cheerfully persisit in living in the hope that nothing will separate me from Christ's love.
"Everyday I put love on the line. There is nothing I am less good at than love. I am far better in competition than in love. I am far better at responding to my instincts and ambitions to get ahead and make my mark than I am at figuring out how to love another. I am schooled and trained in acquisitive skills, in getting my own way. And yet I decide, every day, to set aside what I can do best and attempt what I do very clumsily -- open myself to the frustrations and failures of loving, daring to believe that failing in love is better than succeeding in pride."
if you've never read anything by Eugene Peterson, I recommend him highly. Check out Leap Over a Wall or A Long Obedience in the Same Direction. Two of my favorites.